"When they had brought their boats to shore, they left everything and followed him." v11
Have you ever walked away from a task others expected you to deal with because you felt profoundly called to something else? What did that feel like?
Or do you always finish what you start? If so, how do you feel about those who walk away - and your self?
I'm answering both of these questions together today.
I always used to finish what I started. Since Rich died, I often don't remember what it was I started, when I said I'd do it or what I was supposed to do about it. I have a Book of Words that I write things down in, that makes life easier, and GoogleKeep for when I am out and about and need to remember things. I think it's getting better - but then I don't think it is sometimes. And that's ok, this is part of who I am now. I have read that this could be a form of PTSD, but I think that's a bit extreme. I waver about going to the doctor, but he has ill patients to see!
And there we go. That paragraph is an excellent example of failing to finish what I started. I got distracted and wandered off on a tangent.
It is one of the things I pray about - that I don't let anyone down by being forgetful, especially my son, or my class.
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